Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Excuse Me While I Have A Moment.

Over the last few weeks I have been pretty happy.  Aside for a few days last week (and that feeling went away when I put on my pants that were no longer tight), I have been feeling pretty awesome about myself and feeling pretty accomplished.  I have been working my tail off and eating right and loving what I am seeing and how I'm feeling.  I have had several people over this time tell me that I am a motivator and an inspiration, which I find completely crazy.  I like hearing, it just makes me want it more, because I feel like I'm letting people down if I don't make it to the gym one day or if I eat a cookie.

There have been several people that have been a motivation for me.  Mainly Lindsey.  We started this journey together, and while we don't make it to the gym together very often we still keep in good contact to see how the other one is doing.

Another is Canesa.  She has just started on her journey to a healthier 2013 and is doing great.  She keeps me in check at school.

And then there's my BFF Katie that told me the other day that she is not eating cake or cookies or sweets because I am not.  She is such a great support system.

I am very thankful for these girls.

However, today I am not feeling very inspirational or motivational.  Today I am feeling down in the dumps.

I played tennis on a team a few months ago.  In my second match on one of the last points I turned my foot a wrong way or something and pulled or twisted something in my arch.  It hasn't been bothering me too bad.  I got inserts for my new running shoes and everything is fine....until I take the shoes off.  Looks like a doctors visit is coming up for me.

Also, I've had this bum knee for as long as I can remember.  It pretty much limits me from doing the bikes, elliptical or anything that's not a treadmill.  Treadmills can be boring.  It also prevents me from lifting much weight with my legs on my circuit days.  I haven't felt a lot of pain, until this week, especially today.  I had plans of doing zumba today, but I was hurting so bad, I came home after the gym, took a bath and put an icy hot patch on my knee.  I have been to the doctor several times for my knee, there is nothing they can do, so they say.  It boggles my brain that they can treat cancer and so many other things yet I can't be pain free. 

I figure once I lose some more weight these pains will go away, however it is very discouraging when you are trying, but it hurts so bad you want to quit.

I will not quit.  I will not give up.  I will work through this pain.

Sunday, January 27, 2013


Let me be honest.....

This week has been a struggle.

Wednesday, I had cake.

Thursday, I had a crappy work out.

Saturday, I ate Fuji's (and may have had a late night French Fry snack).

I lost one stinking pound.

Yea, it was a struggle.

However, this week I've also noticed slight changes. 

My "skinny" pants (by that I mean the pants that are a size smaller and I wore before I gained 15 extra pounds) are no longer tight.

I went a half mile more on the treadmill.

I can do one-mintue planks (And do multiple ones).

And I do a lot of squats (and my hindparts are looking awesome)

So yes, I had a hard week.  Yes, I ate some things I shouldn't have.  But I worked out everyday and I worked hard.  No, I may not have seen the results I would have liked, but this is a new week.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Progress Report

I have been going to the gym for two full weeks. 
I have been watching what I eat for two full weeks.
I have been tracking my calories for two full weeks.
I have been watching my progress for two full weeks.
In two full weeks I have lost eleven pounds.

It seems unreal to type that out.  Elven pounds is a good amount.  I don't want to congratulate myself too much for it.  I don't want to brag, but I am proud.  I am working hard, it shows.

I love hearing someone tell me I look good, or they can tell I've lost weight.

I also love how it makes me feel.  I feel good.  I feel happy.  For the first time in my life I feel bad if I don't go to the gym.  Yeah, sometimes it's hard, somethings I want to stay on the treadmill for just 30 minutes instead of 60.  I want the incline at 0 instead of 4.  However, I feel better at the end of the work out I feel so much better for going 60 minutes instead of 30. 

After this two weeks of eating healthy and drinking water, I have realized the benefits of it all are really there.  My hair looks great, my nails are awesome, and most importantly (and the coolest thing to me) my skin is looking great.  Anyone who knows me, knows I don't go anywhere without make-up.  It's not a high maintaince thing, like many think, it's because my face looks like crap.  It's red and I have dry patches, and even with using creams it didn't really help.  Friday, as I got ready for work I put my make-up on and as I looked in the mirror I looked in the mirror and realized I didn't put on foundation....and my face looked good.  My face isn't not red and my dry patches are gone. 

My ultimate goal is 40 lbs by graduation (May 11).  When using my "Lose It App" I put in my current weight in and my goal....at first it said I would hit my goal by May 12.  That kind of disappointed me, and by kind of I mean a lot.  So I went, and I busted my butt.  It know says May 8.  Which still doesn't give me a lot of wiggle room.  I am going to have to work hard.  I hope by sharing my journey with everyone it will help motivate me to keep going. 

Something that has helped me is rewards and new stuff.  When I started running and beat my personal best, I bought running shoes, super awesome running shoes (the shoes I was wearing were hurting my feet and rubbing blisters, too).  When I lost ten pounds I got a manicure.  And my mother, who is awesome, got my some new exercise gear yesterday and I can't wait to put on my new top and go to the gym tomorrow!!!

Friday, January 4, 2013

Workout Playlist

Everyone knows it's easier to exercise with a soundtrack.  Here's mine.  It's nicely named "Run Fatty".   Mostly cause it makes me giggle.

There's 55  songs....and as you know I'm random...and weird....so there's some musicals and some Glee :)

1.  ABC (Glee Cast Version)
2.  All Revved Up With No Place To Go (Meat Loaf)
3.  Any Way You Want It/ Lovin' Touchin' Squeezin' (Glee Cast Version)
4.  Baby (Justin Bieber)
5.  Baby One More Time (Britney Spears)
6.  Bad Romance (Lady Gaga)
7.  Baggage Claim (Miranda Lambert)
8.  Bat Out Of Hell (Meat Loaf)
9.  Bonafide (Miss Willie Brown)** I highly recommend this song
10.  Born The Way (Lady Gaga)
11.  Bust A Move (Glee)
12.  Call Me Maybe (Carly Rae Jepsen)
14.  Country Girl (Luke Bryan)
15.  Don't Stand So Close To Me/Young Girl (Glee)
16.  Dream On (Glee)
17.  Drive By (Train)
18.  The Edge Of Glory (Lady Gaga)
19.  Eight Second Ride (Jake Owen)
20  Empire State of Mind (Glee)
21.  Everybody Talks (Neon Trees)
22.  Fat Bottomed Girls (Glee Cast) (I don't want this song to apply to me ANYMORE)
23.  Firework (Katy Perry)
24.  Footloose (Black Shelton)
25.  Forget You (Glee)
26.  Get Off On The Pain (Gary Allan)
27.  Gives You Hell (All American Rejects)
28.  Hate On Me (Glee)
29.  Hey, Soul Sister (Train)
30.  How You Ever Gonna Know (Garth Brooks)
31.  Ice, Ice Baby (THIS IS MY JAM)
32.  In The End (Port Chuck)
33.  I Can Sleep When I'm Dead (Jason Michael Carroll)
34.  Just Dance (Lady Gaga)
35.  Light Up The World (Glee)
36.  Like It's A Bad Thing (Gary Allan)
37.  Loser Like Me (Glee)
38.  Mama's Broken Heart (Miranda Lambert)
39.  P.Y.T. (Michael Jackson)
40.  Payphone (Maroon Five)
41.  Raise Your Glass (Pink)
42.  River Deep, Mountain High (Glee)
43.  Rose's Turn (Glee)
44.  Settin' The World On Fire (Jake Owen)
45.  Sexy and I Know It (LMFAO)
46.  Somebody That I Used To Know (Gotye)
47.  Somebody Heartbreak (Hunter Hayes)
48.  Stronger (Kelly Clarkson)
49.  Thriller?Heads Will Roll (Glee)... This Is The Best Running Song
50.  Undo It (Carrie Underwood)
51.  Valerie (Glee)
52.  You and I (Lady Gaga)
53.  You Get What You Give (Glee)
54.  22 (Taylor Swift)
55.  50 Ways To Say Goodbye (Train)

Thursday, January 3, 2013

My Time

I know this is the time of year when everyone makes resolutions and wants to better themselves.  I try to steer away from such things.  Reason being, I tend to not keep them, so I find it better to just not make them.  However, if I am being honest, I don't like myself.  I am not looking for sympathy or comments about how great I am.  I am being honest.  I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror.   Most days I don't like what's on the inside either.  It is not something that I have just began to notice.  I've known it for a while.  However, I am ready to make changes.  I've said that before, I know, I know.  This time though, I want to actually stick with it.  I've done it before, I can do it again.  I hope.

It's scary to admit these things, but I feel like if I admit them I will be more apt to keep up with this journey.

First thing first, I want to lose weight.  I get tired of what I see every day.  Yes, I know I need to get healthy, but right now, personally I want to look good.  I want to buy cute clothes.  I want to turn heads, I want to be the one people look at. 

For far too long I have placed too much value on the way people, especially men, treat me.  I put too much worth into what they think and what they do.  I don't want to worry about that anymore.  I want to be the cool girl, the chill girl, the one that's not looking at her cell phone will it to go off.  I don't want to spend my days thinking about how long it's been since I've heard from someone. 

I spend too much money.  I buy things I don't need.  Over time I have realized I do this to feel a void, too make me feel better about myself.  I want to save some money and spend less.

So there it is.   The things I am going to do to better myself.  Lose weight (even if it's for vanity), feel better about myself, and spend less money.  Fingers crossed for a successful journey.

New Years Eve (hopefully my last "Fat" NYE)