I know this is the time of year when everyone makes resolutions and wants to better themselves. I try to steer away from such things. Reason being, I tend to not keep them, so I find it better to just not make them. However, if I am being honest, I don't like myself. I am not looking for sympathy or comments about how great I am. I am being honest. I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror. Most days I don't like what's on the inside either. It is not something that I have just began to notice. I've known it for a while. However, I am ready to make changes. I've said that before, I know, I know. This time though, I want to actually stick with it. I've done it before, I can do it again. I hope.
It's scary to admit these things, but I feel like if I admit them I will be more apt to keep up with this journey.
First thing first, I want to lose weight. I get tired of what I see every day. Yes, I know I need to get healthy, but right now, personally I want to look good. I want to buy cute clothes. I want to turn heads, I want to be the one people look at.
For far too long I have placed too much value on the way people, especially men, treat me. I put too much worth into what they think and what they do. I don't want to worry about that anymore. I want to be the cool girl, the chill girl, the one that's not looking at her cell phone will it to go off. I don't want to spend my days thinking about how long it's been since I've heard from someone.
I spend too much money. I buy things I don't need. Over time I have realized I do this to feel a void, too make me feel better about myself. I want to save some money and spend less.
So there it is. The things I am going to do to better myself. Lose weight (even if it's for vanity), feel better about myself, and spend less money. Fingers crossed for a successful journey.
It's scary to admit these things, but I feel like if I admit them I will be more apt to keep up with this journey.
First thing first, I want to lose weight. I get tired of what I see every day. Yes, I know I need to get healthy, but right now, personally I want to look good. I want to buy cute clothes. I want to turn heads, I want to be the one people look at.
For far too long I have placed too much value on the way people, especially men, treat me. I put too much worth into what they think and what they do. I don't want to worry about that anymore. I want to be the cool girl, the chill girl, the one that's not looking at her cell phone will it to go off. I don't want to spend my days thinking about how long it's been since I've heard from someone.
I spend too much money. I buy things I don't need. Over time I have realized I do this to feel a void, too make me feel better about myself. I want to save some money and spend less.
So there it is. The things I am going to do to better myself. Lose weight (even if it's for vanity), feel better about myself, and spend less money. Fingers crossed for a successful journey.
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