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Excuse Me While I Have A Moment.

Over the last few weeks I have been pretty happy.  Aside for a few days last week (and that feeling went away when I put on my pants that were no longer tight), I have been feeling pretty awesome about myself and feeling pretty accomplished.  I have been working my tail off and eating right and loving what I am seeing and how I'm feeling.  I have had several people over this time tell me that I am a motivator and an inspiration, which I find completely crazy.  I like hearing, it just makes me want it more, because I feel like I'm letting people down if I don't make it to the gym one day or if I eat a cookie.

There have been several people that have been a motivation for me.  Mainly Lindsey.  We started this journey together, and while we don't make it to the gym together very often we still keep in good contact to see how the other one is doing.

Another is Canesa.  She has just started on her journey to a healthier 2013 and is doing great.  She keeps me in check at school.

And then there's my BFF Katie that told me the other day that she is not eating cake or cookies or sweets because I am not.  She is such a great support system.

I am very thankful for these girls.

However, today I am not feeling very inspirational or motivational.  Today I am feeling down in the dumps.

I played tennis on a team a few months ago.  In my second match on one of the last points I turned my foot a wrong way or something and pulled or twisted something in my arch.  It hasn't been bothering me too bad.  I got inserts for my new running shoes and everything is fine....until I take the shoes off.  Looks like a doctors visit is coming up for me.

Also, I've had this bum knee for as long as I can remember.  It pretty much limits me from doing the bikes, elliptical or anything that's not a treadmill.  Treadmills can be boring.  It also prevents me from lifting much weight with my legs on my circuit days.  I haven't felt a lot of pain, until this week, especially today.  I had plans of doing zumba today, but I was hurting so bad, I came home after the gym, took a bath and put an icy hot patch on my knee.  I have been to the doctor several times for my knee, there is nothing they can do, so they say.  It boggles my brain that they can treat cancer and so many other things yet I can't be pain free. 

I figure once I lose some more weight these pains will go away, however it is very discouraging when you are trying, but it hurts so bad you want to quit.

I will not quit.  I will not give up.  I will work through this pain.


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