I Really Want To Be A Runner

I want to be a runner.

I have, over the years, started the Couch to 5K program and made it through the first two weeks, then I quit.

This year I joined Women Can Run and attempted to be a runner.

I get on the treadmill and run at the gym.

I did a 5K.

However, I cannot run. I am not a runner. It makes me super sad.

I see people running and I want to do that. I enjoy it when I do it and it's such a release, almost like therapy. I do ok when I'm running on the treadmill, but the most I can make it is 2.5 miles. Which is ok for me and I take time off my 5K every time I run.

I just tried to run outside and I can't do it. I can't run outside. The pavement kills me. It hurts my feet and my knee.

I feel so down on myself because I want to be able to do it so bad. I just feel like I can't do it. It's so discouraging and I can't stand it. Maybe one day I'll be able to be a runner, but when I've been attempting to be one since January and I'm not one yet.

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